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26 Look up at the sky and consider:
Who created these?
The one who brings out their attendants one by one,
summoning each of them by name.
Because of God’s great strength
and mighty power, not one is missing.
27 Why do you say, Jacob,
and declare, Israel,
“My way is hidden from the LORD,
my God ignores my predicament”?
28 Don’t you know? Haven’t you heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the creator of the ends of the earth.
He doesn’t grow tired or weary.
His understanding is beyond human reach,
29 giving power to the tired
and reviving the exhausted.
30 Youths will become tired and weary,
young men will certainly stumble;
31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength;
they will fly up on wings like eagles;
they will run and not be tired;
they will walk and not be weary.
After long years of exile, Israelites now faced a hard, wearing trip on foot from Babylon to Israel. It was tempting for them to think God didn’t see their hardships. The prophet pointed his readers to their God, who created everything, and whose understanding is beyond human reach. He invited them (and us) to trust when we don’t understand. Trust allows us to “hope in the LORD” for renewed strength, and through faith to “fly up on wings like eagles,” to “walk and not be weary.”
Lord God, when you and your love feel absent from my life, help me trust you and cling to hope. Remind me of what I too easily forget—that you love, value and care for me. Amen.
In today’s blog, I want to share a deeply personal story. I have an
anxiety disorder. I think this is probably way more common
than what I know, but for me it’s always been difficult to fully come to terms
with the fact that I need to rely on this medication. I had always been known
as a very calm, collected, stress-free, cheerful guy. So when I needed to go on
medications to keep my inner stress from becoming overpowering, it was a
difficult hurdle to overcome.
From time to time, my anxiety can manifest itself as depression--the two are very closely linked. There was a particular time when over the
course of a couple weeks between medications, I was thrown into a deep sense of
darkness. Call it what you will--withdrawals, discontinuation syndrome from
switching medications, my own depression, something else. During this time, I
became disconnected from my loved ones, even disconnected from myself (I even forgot my own birthday!). I felt so much emptiness; I could not
remember a time in which I had ever felt joy, nor could I foresee any time that
I would feel a sense of peace and hope again. Everywhere I went, I imagined
that everybody else around me must be feeling the same way, and I wondered how
humanity could have ever moved forward if these feelings were universal.
What got me through this time were three things. The first was
intellectual: the knowledge that this was not me, that this cloud of darkness
was not of my own making.
The second was relational: the recognition that I had a family who
loves and needs me. While I was in this, I did talk to my wife openly to tell
her what I was feeling--but it took an extreme effort to do so. If she and I
hadn’t already built bridges together where depression was already a part of
our conversations, I don’t think I would have been able to admit to her how I
was feeling, at least not unprompted.
Finally, what really got me through this time was spiritual. My
faith in God told me that I have a reason to be here, and those reasons so
often tie into the other two reasons above. One of my favorite verses in Bible
speaks into almost all situations, but it spoke so deeply here. It’s Jeremiah
29:11 (NIV). “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans
to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
It was in this short-lived shadow that I came to realize that the
people who are deep in the trenches of this kind of cloud truly cannot see a
way out. I share this with you today in the hopes that if you have a loved one
who is shrouded in darkness, you may see a little better how difficult it
is to see the light. Often, people in depression just need someone like
you to be there. Don’t try to fix them or “the problem.” Just let them
know you’re there for them, that you are available to talk should they ever
need to. Make an effort to check in on them. In the book When Someone You
Love is Depressed, one of the many great pieces of advice the authors offer
is to “Offer unqualified support. What your depressed partner needs more
than anything is your unconditional love and support.”*
If you are reading this and you can’t see the light, I want you to
know that I see you. God sees you. Jesus sees you. You are not alone, and you
are loved. People are here to help you (whether that be the National Suicide
Prevention Hotline, Congregation Care, or your own family and friends). All it
takes is a phone call, or even just a text.
*Amador, Xavier, Rosen, Laura. When Someone You Love is Depressed (Kindle Locations 918-919). Free Press. Kindle Edition.
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